someday, somehow;

2007-08-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE!

click HERE!

byebyebyebyebye!
<3

2007-08-05T20:54:00.000+08:00

THINGS HAVE REALLY CHANGED.
& i have no clue if it's good or bad.
for the umpteenth time in my life, i'm speechless.

I'm on my way.
Come with me.
:D

2007-08-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

CHANGE <3

Changes aren't necessarily bad, though we tend to stereotype it more of the bad side. Changes in life are inevitable. But rather, the more we avoid it, the more it changes our lives. Our every action is going to lead us to a change in some aspect of our life. Sometimes, I really am glad for changes. They add a whole new dimension to life, a dimension viewed through new eyes.

This change is a GOOD change.
And I'm proud of myself.
I don't care if my friends notice or not, what matters most to me is that deep down inside I have truly changed.
And this change is not for anyone to see, but for God and me to witness.
:D

Then again,
There also are negative changes.
Which really aren't worth sharing.

But as much as I dislike you for doing that,
I still love you! <3

SAVE ME!
save me from this place,
heaven knows i've fallen,
for you my sweet embrace,
heaven knows, heaven knows,
i've been waiting for you.
<3

so when're you arriving, my sweet one?
:D

2007-07-30T16:27:00.000+08:00

RANDOMNESS #10.

1. The phone rings, who do you want it to be?# ((((((((:

2. When shopping at the grocery store,do you return your cart?# definitely!

3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed again, would you?# i'm stilling waiting :D

4. Do you take compliments well?# i think so.

5. Do you play Sudoku?# used to, then it became boring.

6. If abandoned alone in the forest, wad wld u wish for?# 10 more wishes???

7. If your house were on fire, what would be the first thing you would save?# my family.

8. Who was the last person you slept in the bed with?# myself!

9. Are you taken?# nehh.

10. Favorite children's book?# i forgot.

11. Eye color?# dark brown.

12. How tall are you?# tall enough to be an air stewardess (:

13. If you could do it over again,start from scratch, would you?# do what?!

14. Any secret admirers?# aren't they supposed to be SECRET admirers? (:

15. When was the last time you were at the toilet?# 1/2 hr ago.

16. Favorite ex..?# i never had one.

17. Where was the furthest place you traveled?# CANADA! <3

18. Do you like mustard?# only with hotdogs :D

19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?# sleep, i'm far too fat.

21. Do you miss anyone?# haha :D

22. Can you do splits?# NO!

23. What movie do you want to see right now?# TRANSFORMERS! (again)

24. What did you do for ur date?# i never had one.

25. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?# 1/2 the time i was squinting and covering my ears, so idk.

26. Do you own a camera phone?# yups.

27. Was your mom a cheerleader?# nope.

28. What's the last letter of your middle name?# i don't have one :(

29. Are you Hispanic?# wt???

31. Do you like care bears?# not really, they're so ancient.

32. What do you buy at the Movies?# sweet POPCORN!

33. Do you know how to play poker?# YES!

34. Do you wear your seatbelt?# always, i don't trust daddy's driving.

35. What do you wear to sleep?# shirt and boxers.

36. Anything big ever happen in urlife??# always does.

37. Is your hair straight or curly?# straight.

38. Is your tongue pierced?# no and never will be.

39. Do you like Liver and Onions?# is it a show?

40. Do you like funny or serious people better?# FUNNY!(:

41. Ever been to L.A.?# OMG I HOPE JAZLYN IS READING THIS! (: ROFL, LMAO! nope.

42. Who is on your mind right now?# it's for me to know and for you to find out.

43. any plans 4 tonight?# SLEEP.

44. Whats your fav. song at the moment?# Before it's too late.

45. Do you hate chocolate?# NO!

46. What do you and your parents fight about the most?# idk... my attitude?

48. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?# NEH!

49. If you could have any job where would it be?# HOLLYWOOD!

50. Are you easy to get along with?# i think so.

51. What is your favorite time of day?# when i'm thinking of you! :P

52. Are you generally a happy person?# WHAT DO YOU THINK?! :D

2007-07-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

RANDOMNESS #9.

I got it from my darling dearest!

4 Things/ People that/ who make me smile:
:) Great friends (Scandal, Lyn, Shakila, Clarice, Delane, Belle, etc.).
:) Thoughts abt people.
:) Music!
:) Lame/ spastic/ witty/ funny jokes.

4 ways to win my heart: Be...
:) Honest.
:) Romantic.
:) Thoughful/ initiative.
:) Humorous.

4 things i believe in:
:) God loves me.
:) "God has a plan for my life!"
:) "Behind every man is a woman who's about to overtake him!" :D
:) "Only 1 out of 1 000 000 dreams come true."

4 things i'm afraid of:
:( God.
:( Rejection.
:( Embarrassment.
:( Cats.

4 things i do everyday:
:) Think of someone.
:) Smile and laugh alot.
:) Crap and gossip :X
:) Think somemore.

4 things/ people i want to see NOW:
:) God.
:) Someone.
:) Close friends.
:) MOVIE MARATHON (transformers, harryp. series, chaos, etc.) :D

hold on,
before it's too late,
we'll run till we leave this behind,
don't fall,
just be who you are,
it's all that i need in my life.
this is so going to be part of my wedding song!

i have alot of things to say,
i do!
it's just that you never gave me the opportunity to do so.

2007-07-23T21:43:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOGA AND SILAT!!!
they rock my socks!

Racial Harmony day didn't turn out to be so fine.
Apparently, I could've worn the pretty yellow kebaya.
:(

But the visit to the CBD and Supreme Court was exquiste!
Someday I'm gonna work there!
(:

Replies to taggers: THANKS for being a great friend (and aza, please don't be dumb, it's NOT you).

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NIC!!! (:
YOU'RE MY FAVOURITEST! <3

Cause there's nothing that I wanna do, but try to make it up to you.

2007-07-22T22:01:00.000+08:00

OVERDEPENDENCE :/

I feel that I rely on my friends too much, wayy too much. I'm not saying it's bad to rely on them or what, but I think that I depend and expect too much from them. So much so, that when things don't turn out the way I expected it to be, the disappointment is too much for me to bear. Yes, I am disappointed with the person, but I'm even more disappointed with myself and my stupidity, for believing their every word, their every lie.

The good times we shared,
the bad times we had.
The beautiful memories,
the petty jealousies.
No matter what happens,
we'll still be besties.

'Throw it away, forget yesterday, we'll make the great esacpe.'

2007-07-20T21:31:00.000+08:00

20072007.

It seems like I have nothing to blog about these fews days. Life couldn't be more uninteresting than this I suppose.

Sigh, I seem to have made more committments again.
Committments I know I'm unable to adhere to.
Committments that are meaningful, but useless because I don't put them into practice.
Committments that are easier said than done.
But if I don't make committments, life will be like a doughnut.
(Ok, that was like so random...)

Wait, I KNOW i have something to say. I DO!
But what was it?
Nvm.

Anyways, thanks scandal, you ALWAYS seem to make my day (:
You're the only person I'll always be in love with, heck all the BGR and relationships :D

2007-07-18T21:46:00.000+08:00

UNTITLED.

I have no idea how to start this post. My thoughts are cluttered up and disorganized, I think I need a vacation. No, to be more precise, I need a getaway, cause a vacation is nearly impossible in the midst of this pandemonium.

The only things/people that have kept me in touch with my senses are as follows (in no particular order) :

Darling scandal - for all the daily 'mature' talks that have slapped me awake :D
Lyn + Clarice + Shakila + Delane + Belle - for all the HYPe-ness you guys have injected into me (:
Dumbledore, Umbridge, Cheryl, Shahera, Potter - for the fun and enthusiasm that has unknowingly kept me smiling.
Chuen, Sarah, Arlene, Ali, Weij, Weik - for all the stupid lame jokes and funny antics that have kept me alive during those oh-so-boring lessons.

I NEED A LIFE!

i'd walk a thousand miles if i could just see you.

And the probable cause of all this frenzy is my idiotic, selfish, disgusting and cocky behaviour.

2007-07-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

FRIDAY THE 13th! (:

AGAIN! It's like the 3rd time in this year!
But, so far, nothings's gone wrong.
In fact, things have been going as planned (daily events lah)!
(Everyday's a friday the 13th when it comes to other stuff.)

So well, I met my boyfriend today! (:
He's like soooo HOT!
We started wayyyyy back like 4 years ago and we're still going strong now! (:
And I know that I may have love rivalries (like Cho Chang and Sing Chuen), but he's still devoted to me, and that's not gonna change! :D
Hmm, but I'm not gonna be selfish, so I shall share pics!

ON-SCREEN! <333

WHEN WE'RE DATING! :D

(HA, I'm so thick-skinned, I know!)
Either way, he's still hot! <3
MRS. RADCLIFF! (:
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Other unhappy stuff can wait for tomorrow.

2007-07-11T20:46:00.000+08:00

勇气 (:

1. 勇气有很多种。
2. 有些让人肃然起敬。
3. 有些则司空见惯。
4. 反正，勇气就是勇气－不管是哪一种。
5. 勇气，是参加注音比赛时，出现了一个难的题目。
6. 勇气，是有两枝棒棒糖，却能留下一枝，等明天再吃。
7. 勇气，是改掉坏习惯。
8. 勇气，是机情人卡给偷偷羡慕的人，还签上自己真正的姓名。
9. 勇气，是奴隶让自己小气，妒忌的一面，不表现出来。
10. 勇气，是明明知道前面是一座座高山，还坚定不移地往上爬。
11. 勇气，是到外太空展开探索－也是潜入深海。
12. 勇气，是从雪地冒出的一根青草。
13. 勇气，是重新再来一遍。
14. 勇气，是坚持自己的梦想。
15. 勇气，是再必要是说再见。
16. 勇气，是彼此分享。

你有勇气吗？

2007-07-08T21:52:00.000+08:00

how could i forget??!

HAPPY YOUTH SUNDAY!!! (:

I had sooo much fun today, ushering and all!!!
And I saw Mr Teo and his family! (:
Youth worship was super fun!!!
And the photos were awesome and hawtsome :D

ROCK ON YMPACT!!!
you rawk my smelly sawks! :P

2007-07-08T21:25:00.000+08:00

SWEETNESS! <3

AWWW, THANK YOU SWEETIE!
LOVE YOU MUCHIES! (:

You're super sweet! And of all places there! You seriously know how to please me! :D
Can't wait to see you and thank you in person again!
Your gift is super nice yet simple, I appreciate it.

ILU. YOU'RE THE SWEETEST! <333

2007-07-07T22:41:00.001+08:00

070707.

Today was supposed to be THE day. But it was probably not God's will so, nevermind, He has a better plan for me, and I know it. So I'm trying to rid myself of all the grudges and complaints for the good of myself and everyone around me.

I'm gonna be a better person from tomorrow onwards by:

1. Putting God first in my life.
2. Controlling my mouth.
3. Discerning from what is right and wrong.
4. Reminding myself W.W.J.D, and
5. Being nice to others.

I'm gonna try.
But with His strength, I can do it! (:
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I'm sorry if I made you really, really upset today. It wasn't the way I meant it to be. ARHH! I feel so guilty. But I also must thank you, because I finally see how bad I am (:

*** *** ***
I really can't believe you said that. And I refuse to believe it :D
That's all I'm gonna say.

I JUST WANNA THANK YOU LORD! (:

2007-07-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

TERM 3 WEEK 2 :/

It's the end of week 2 already, gosh. I wonder how long I can pull myself through this. I seriously need to keep in touch with my sanity, but I'm losing myself soon. Losing myself to who? Hmmm, let's talk about it when the time is right (:

Bear with me, I'm gonna give random snippets of my uninteresting life. So those who wanna leave, go.

Ok, so this whole week was a blast.

1. I totally flunked my A-math like never before.
(I had a dream that I scored 2/20, and Ms Nawal even wrote a 'good' beside it.)
2. I had the same (almost) recurring dream.
(Of which I can only remember 2.)
3. I got high about 'Transformers' and 'Harry Potter' in school.
(Ms Ong has the wrong impression abt me, I was over enthusiastic.)
4. I spent 5 hours writing a Chinese compo.
(I'm prepared to fail my 'O's.)
5. I've been chatting with Azalea and that's the only thing that has kept me going.
(THANKS SCANDAL! <3)
6. We celebrated Mrs VJ's birthday. (The chocolate cake wasn't enough for everyone.)

And, there's a section in my diary that says 'Things I Love About My Life!' :
- Church friends! (lyn, shakila, azalea, delane, clarice)
- Someone special!
- Family! <3
- Someone special!
- School friends! (kwang, chuen, alicia, sarah, bren, lene, weij)
- Someone special!

Sorry I'm super random today, and my brain's not functioning too...
oh my my my, i had fallen for you.

2007-07-02T20:57:00.000+08:00

SECRETS!

Everyone has secrets...

What's YOURS?!

I really, really, really wanna know :P

Ahhh, all this thinking is making me nuts.
But if I'll cry if I stop thinking about it.

Anyways, on a lighter note... here are some photos of me and my new found friend!

I named her JAM! (:

this is Joevien! (Joel + Vivien) :D

JAM!!! (:

striking resemblance!!! :D

sam loves jam! <3

SAM and JAM! :D

much loves :(

so faraway.

2007-06-30T21:12:00.000+08:00

CC & ECP! <3

0705-1035 (Pasir Ris Park)
This was the first cross country I took part in my whole life. And even though I had an MC, I still took part in it, I'm so proud of myself! (: haha, so I was telling Sing Chuen and Sarah that we cannot walk more than this speed and we strictly must walk, no running, quite dangerous you know. So after the whistle, we plugged our MP3s in our ears and started strolling (according to sing, we need momentum while walking too! :D). The toal distance was 3.5km, from carpark A to carpark C and even before we reached the bridge, we were perspiring like pigs. So we walked and walked and walked until the stables (half-way through), where we saw fellow 'competitors' taking pictures of the cute little horses. LOL! haha. We came in 1st from the bottom.
It was super boring!!! And the only part worth rejoicing over is the MILO TRUCK, which came with deliciously thirst-quenching milo!

1120 - 1935 (East Coast Park)
Progam Outing FINALLY! After MIA for so many months, we're together again! (: Even Viv came along! :D We did many many stuff today and we settled quite a number of issues. The handbook was 'torn apart' by the team members and we totally revamp-ed it, no major changes though. We ate at the lagoon and I shared a 'Strawberry de Cocktail' with SL!!!Haha, and we had to suffer with the blistering heat because there was practically no wind. SHEESH! Then at about 4, we (Shakila, Daphne, Jazlyn and I) went cycling!!! And we were so amazed with the water skating (wtv you call it) park that we also crashed into one another. Marcus came along with his own bike too! (: And we cycled for 1hr, until my butt was numb, while the others played monkey! HAHA. So after returning the bikes, we had a little crisis, cause we couldn't decide whether to eat or go home, and after lots of contemplation and making Jacko angry :P we headed to Parkway for dinner. Ok, the bus journey was embarrassing. Jacko and Shaun were suaning me like nobody's business. LOL, so funny and everyone was exchanging lame jokes! (:
It was so fun today and Shaun was torturing Daphne and I on the bus journey home... super funny, until a commuter had to ask us to lower our volume down :P PAISEH!!!

Now, I'm exhausted, mentally.

2007-06-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

What would you rather be called?
01. baby or babe ?- babe.
02. Sweetie or Honey:- both (:
03. Darling or Sunshine:- darling!

PRESENTLY
-01. is your hair wet?- nope.
02. is your cell phone right by you?- yea.
03. do you miss someone?- yep.
04. are you wearing chap stick?- neh.
05. are you tired?- definitely.
06. are you excited for tomorrow?- not really :P
07. are you watching tv?- no.
08. are you wearing pyjamas?- boxers counted?

HAVE YOU-
01. recently done anything you regret?- yea... :/
02. ever lied?- obviously!
03. ever stuck gum under a desk?- nope, so lame!
04. ever kicked someone?- hard.
05. ever tripped over your own feet?- embarrassingly, yes.

TODAY -
01. have you cursed?- haha, lots...
02. have you yelled at someone?- even more...
03. have you gotten mad at someone?- YES! (:

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?- (((((:
Q: Do you have any siblings?- unfortunately, yes.
Q: Do you want children?- After marriage...
Q: Do you smile often?- what do you think? (:
Q: Do you wish on stars?- neh.
Q: Do you untie your shoes every timeyou take them off?- sometimes, when i remember.
Q: When did you last cry?- monday.
Q: Do you like your handwriting?- now, yes. previously, no.
Q: Are your toenails painted?- yes.
Q: Are you a friendly person?- most of the time, yes, but it depends on who it is (:
Q: Who's bed did you sleep in lastnight?- mine, DUH! (refer to Q3)
Q: What color shirt are you wearing?- white.
Q: Do you have any pets?- neh.
Q: What were you doing at 6pm lastnight?- watching TV! (:
Q: I can't wait until:- I get a life! :D
Q: Is Tom on your friends list?- NO, but dick and harry are! (jkjk) (:
Q: Look to your right what do you see?- Bible.
Q: look to your left what do you see?- Door.
Q: Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?- yeps.
Q: Why did you take this survey?- for fun, laughter, peace and joy. :P
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1. Do you ever lie about your age? haha, under certain circumstances, yea (:
2. Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or"tough guys"? sensitive! but a combi of both would be great! (:
3. Do you prefer blonde or dark haired guys? whatever, as long as they look acceptable.
4. Are you currently single? yup.
5. How many things in your past do you regret? many, I'm a human.
6. Do you have a best friend? haha...
7. What do you want to be when you grow up? I really wanna be a radio DJ! :D
8. Who was the last person you hugged? I can't remember...
9. Have you ever had your heart broken? just a little crack.
10. Have you ever thought about having plastic surgery? yes, but no.
11. Do you like your life? can get used to it.
12. Do you shop at Hollister? where in the world's that?
13. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you? don't think so
14. Has one of your friends ever stabbedyou in the back? sadly, yes :(
16. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys? it doens't really matter...
17. How long have you had friendster? i think 0307
18. Have you ever cheated on someone? i don't even have a bf.
19. Has anyone ever cheated on you? nope.
20. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face? yes (:
21. What is one of your biggest fears? pain, cats, birds.
22. Have you ever skipped class? yea...
23. Has anyone close to you ever passed away? obviously!
24. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? yes...
25. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? yup.
26. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater"? nope.
27. Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right? yea, i guess.
28. Do you ever wish you were famous? are you kidding?! I dream about it (:
29. Do u ever wish u were a man? sometimes, haha (:
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First off, what is your name?> samantha.
What did you do last night?> mugging, slacking.
Do you have a same sex best friend that you can talk to 24/7?> yea (:
Do you have any siblings?> yep.
Where are you exactly?> bedroom.
Got a gf/ bf?> i wish.
What does the 7th message in your[cell] text inbox say?> it's a picture of someone (;
Who sits beside you in math?> ali and huixin (:
Do you like ramen noodles?> hate it.
Where is your dad right now?> his bedroom.
Do you have any kids?> I wish.
Who was the 5th most recent person you got a missed call from?> daddy.
Closest black object?> handphone, half black.
Closest silver object?> handphone, half silver (:
Would you go back in time to change anything you've done?> definitely.
Do you sing in the shower?> when i'm high :D
Are you wearing socks?> no.
How does your hair look right now?> the way it's always been; down.
Last time you listened to country music?> the day before ytd.
If you could kill someone, who would it be?> I don't kill. Killing is a sin.
What are your fears?> pain, cats, birds, ick :P
Do you like kangaroos?> i like joeys! (:
How do you like your steak?> soft.
What are you wearing?> teeshirt & boxers.
Who was the last person to comment you?> cheryl.
Do you sing?> I can shatter glass.
Screamo or Country?> Country.
Rock or Rap?> Rock.
Would you give your boyfriend/girlfriend a second chance if he/she cheated on you?> many factors to consider, maybe.
Who did you last call?> mummy.
Was your Valentine's day nice?> average, neither good nor bad.
What are you doing now?> filling up this test basically.
Who was the last person you said i love you to?> mum.
Would you die for someone?> nope.
Do you have to pee right now?> no...
What did you dream about last night?> nothing.
Bed sheet color?> yellow.
Can you do a cartwheel?> nope :(
Do you own a pogo stick?> nope.
Ever gone a whole day without eating? i'll die.
What makes you mad?> lots of stuff.
What if you found out you were adopted?> I'm not :/
Are you jealous a lot of the time?> depends.
Do you have low self esteem?> nope, don't think so.
Do you own any big sunglasses?> nope, but i own cool ones.
Who can make you laugh during the hardest times?> friends :D
If your best friend died right this very instant, what would you do?> cry, cry, cry.
Do you like 80s movies?> not really.
Ever encountered a shark?> nope.
What kinda movies do you like?> romantic comedies, action, etc..
Are you a crazy stalker?> noooooooo, like there's no one to stalk anyway.
Would you like to move?> to Australia, yes! to Tampines, no.
Do you have a lot of friends?> I'd rather have a few close friends.
Do you miss someone?> (:
Are you sad?> yes, cause I can't go outtttt.
Favorite time of day?> night.
Have you ever licked someones cheek?> hahaha, don't think so.
Watch all Spiderman movies?> yep (:
What are you looking forward to?> Saturday! Youth day?
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1. apple/banana/orange? :banana.
2. choc/strawberry/vanilla icecream? :chocolate.
3. chatting/call/sms? :call.
4. colour, pink, blue, white, black? :black.
5. mexican/italian/chinese/american? :italian.
6. drinks: soda/tea/coffee? :water will do.
7. pets: dog/cat/fish/reptiles? :fish (cause they're easy to maintain)
8. buy a house or travel around the world: both!
9. handkerchief/tissue? :tissue.
10. scents: floral/fruity/fancy? :fancy.
11. hair color: hazelnut brown.
12. desk job/field job? : field.
13. lounge/beach/park/club? : lounge.
14. economics/mathematics/science? : science.
15. believe that alien (UFO) do exist: nope.
17. investing in bank/properties? :properties.
18. swimming/tennis/jogging/soccer?: tennis (:
19. success: in your career/love/life? : love <3>

20. casual/punkie/fancy dress? :combi of all 3! (:

2007-06-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

FOCAL POINT :/

All eyes see one.
(But I think my eye is crooked.)

That doesn't make sense.
Anyways, focal point is smth you learn in physics.
Pah, physics sucks :P

That's beside the point.
I can't focus today, my brain keeps running away.

Notice that it's in my favourite colour(s).
Wahhhhhhh. I want you!!! (:
Sometimes, I wish that I could just live, deluded and ignorant. So that I wouldn't have to tolerate this.

2007-06-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

FAREWELL PARTAY ):

Today's farewell partay was a total FLOP.

(Ok, I'm sorry but the truth hurts. And it wasn't the committee's fault.)

It was mine.

I totally screwed everything up...

I'm sorry that I've been such a lousy comm member.

And I totally deserve to be hit on the head with a sledgehammer.

Sorry especially for spilling the zappel all over the place.

It was so unexpected and embarrassing.

I wished you'd have killed me.

Other than that, the BBQ-ing itself was cool.

(Even though the heat and smoke was burning and choking me to death.)

Cheryl and I were bbq-ing at the halal side, so no photos of the tantalising food, sorry.

But when we were 'emo-ing' on the rocks, we took quite a number of photos (:

Overall, the food was quite ok, the atmosphere was so-so, but the fun I had was awesome! :D Oh and there were blood-thirsty, irritating mosquitoes that left HUGE red patches on my arms and legs. ARGH! Oh yea, guess who I saw?! The army guys again!!! (: HAHAHAHAHA.

Bryan with all the food! (:My friend, ROCKY! <3

Cheryl and me!!! <3

Me and Yipee! :DSpaz got the better of us! :/YO MAMA! ((((((:The Terrific Trio (Triple T's)!!! <3>

I shall leave the uhappy things for tomorrow.

There's alot to blog about ):

2007-06-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

LORN.

I am officially.
Like I'm so envious and a little tad jealous.
But at the same time a little relieved that I'm not in that predicament.
*Note: a little.

Why not me? Why??!
Seriously! Why is my reception so short and limited??!
Ahhh! So pissing you know...
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...

Great, now I'm in a i'd-do-anything-to-get-your-attention-and-i-won't-give-up-so-easily kinda mood.
Except that, I'm not too sure about the last part...

:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
[mutiple chins, bleah]

2007-06-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

And I realise it's almost impossible...
To do it.
Heck Nike.
I can't bring myself to do it.
I don't even know what to do.

>.<
'

2007-06-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

SADNESS )':

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know, you know, you know

Don't give up on love, because the Lord didn't give up on you.
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Ytd was fun but disheartening.
And super tiring.
I won't really elaborate much.
Cause I don't want the whole world to start questioning me again.

Today was super fun too!
Bowling was hilarious!
They were so cute and we should have taken photos.
Shrek wasn't as nice as expected...
It was disappointing and short, totally not worth your money.

Toodles, I'm going back to slumber land :P
(I'm sorry, today's post is so random and un-interesting.)

2007-06-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

CAMPS and MORE CAMPS!

S.W

S/W(pun intended)

Camp was fun, but quite tiring! (:
I like it though! Hah- GG.Jie, GA dept.
I'll miss it and them! <3

For those who don't know, I'll be going to another camp tomorrow.
Chiong ah! :D

AND BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY :'(
it's time to be a big girl now...

(P.S Mummy, I LOVE YOU! <3)

2007-06-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

Father

And

Mother

Love

You

they're the best and most trustworthy.

whatever they do is for our own good.

i noticed the important things in my life contain the number 7 in one way or another.

and no, i don't think it's coincidental (:

Thanks for always being t here :D

2007-06-06T01:00:00.000+08:00

IRONIES :/

060507 was a GREAT day for me.

050607 was a BAD day for me.

Ironies.
Sometimes, they make life miserable.
I think I make life worse.

:(((

SIGNAL FIRE <3
The only resolution and the only joy, is the faint spark of forgiveness in your eyes.

That probably sums it all up.

2007-06-05T22:20:00.000+08:00

)%)^)&

WHAT IS WRONG?!
I have nooo idea, maybe it's me.

Today's been a really sad day for me.
It got even worse just now.
And most of it are inter-related ):

Just had a looong chat with someone. I'm glad to know that the person is so kind and nice to me (: haha, I sound corny, well heck. I think I'm damn stupid sometimes. Why should I be nice to people when others aren't being nice to me. It's super unfair... I have to bear all this birdcrap and bullshit.

I need to relax. I'm too stressed. God knows how high my blood pressure is.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

So we talked and talked and talked. And talked. About loads of stuff.
Seriously, what would I do without you?
What could I do? nothing.

I'm supposed to be happy.
It's the holidays afterall (a layman's term).
And they're coming...
And they came.
And we went.

But I'm feeling so sucky and shity now.
So much for trying to be happy...
I suck :P

It's more like ah crap now...
So many things happened during my absence.
Maybe I should leave more often.
Maybe I should leave and never come back.
Well, I'm glad you are.
Well, I'm glad you are here for me.

2007-06-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

dipstick. cupid's chokehold. kebabs. ah beng!(: Kenny G. saxophone. love. coco chan. relationships. messy. sweet. powerless. imagination's running wild. bikini bottom. hearts. biology. curses. bolster. ah beng!(: highlighter. high. the eye. valentine's. sleepy heads. yong tau foo. school. holidays. gala dinner. embarrassing moments. happiness. truth. honesty. don't dream it's over. home. church. friends. classmates. ah beng!(: best. holiday assignments. belongings. sunglasses. contacts. msn messenger. handphone. ipod. sleeping bug. flu. monopoly. roulette. bankrupt. pok-pok. dealer. monster bet. bowling. billiards. table soccer. ah beng!(: entertainment source. lip balm. camp. shopping. nike. you. e-buzz. candyman. sugarcane. with love. top 10. pictures. memories. bet. celebs. mtv. butterflies. camera. capsule. ah beng!(: over it. safe journey. big apple. dunkin' doughnuts. love. nonsense. rolly polly. violin. football. video. jersey. wristband. malaysia. honda. plasma. toilet. forever 15. ah beng!(: best man. shanice. book of life. future life. mercy. irritating people. review. comprehension. collar bell. tp-tp. shhh-shhh. trl. meetings. life. emo-ness. beauty. ah beng!(: shania & ethan. romeo & juliet. flying dutchman. footsteps. tears. mascara. loose strings. newspaper. summer love. you'll see.

ah beng!(:
<3

2007-05-29T12:36:00.000+08:00

LIFE'S HAPPINESS (:

Everyone's entitled to their own happiness.

noun
1. state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy
2. emotions experienced when in a state of well-being

I like this definition of happiness.
It makes me feel happy.

Should I fight for my own happiness?
In fighting for my own happiness, I might have to sacrifice things that are dear to me. I'll be taking this BIG BIG risk, beacuse if I fail, I would have to pick myself up and start from scratch. There are many factors to consider before making a move.

It seems a little weird;
A girl fighting for her own happiness.

(:

The supreme happiness in life is the conviction that we are all loved. -Victor Hugo

2007-05-27T20:45:00.000+08:00

I FOUND MYSELF! (:

060507 - it's tme to try anything to be with you.

210507 - it's sooo disappointing.

270507 - you made your grand entrance.

haha, people.
don't think too much.

really had loads of FUN colouring with the kiddies!
muacks, i love 'em all!

2007-05-25T14:51:00.000+08:00

LIFE'S LOVE (:

I thought you felt the same way,
I thought I made your day.
I thought you were going to stay,
But then the feelings faded away.

I loved the way you looked at me,
I knew we were meant to be.
However I was blind, I didn't see,
That your love was out to fool me.

Everytime I dreamt of you,
It would chase away the blues.
It was empty, I got the clue,
But still my feelings were true.

It seems so hard to let you go,
and the process is so slow.
I try hard not to let my feelings show,
But down my cheeks tears flow.

I guess we were never meant to be together,
There's someone better for one another.
The best of luck we wish each other,
Friends we shall be, forever.

(:

2007-05-23T20:51:00.000+08:00

MIXED EMOTIONS :/

I don't know how to express how I feel right now. My heart's a tangled ball of mixed emotions, so difficult to undo. I know I don't have the right to feel this way, you need it more than me.

I feel as if I'm not here for you when you need me the most. I listening, but half-heartedly, because the other half of my mind is wandering and thinking too much. Worrying for nothing, anxious over stupid, silly, insignificant things. My problems compared to yours are nothing. I've been such a horrible friend, and i seriously don't deserve to be your friend. Though, Im trying to be better and learn from experiences. Greatest apologies if I didn't answer your questions correctly, sorry too for the times when I turned so selfish and self-centred. I really didn't mean it. And if I've hurt you sub-consciously, I'm so so sorry. I never meant for it to happen.

I know, even a thousand apologies wouldn't be able to mend the wound or heal the scars.

:'(

"Say a little prayer to Jesus, you'll be fine."

Thank you Lord, for giving me something so simple yet priceless. Help me Lord, to always tresure my friends and hold them close to my heart. Please help me to appreciate my close friends and strengthen our friendship as time passes. And when I am experiencing rocky patches, instil in me patience, love, kindness and forgiveness. For kindness is the oil that takes away the friction in life. Show me your grace and compassion so that I may not hate but love my neighbour as myself. Lord, please open my eyes and ears to be sensitive around other people so that I will not offend them and I will be careful with the language and tone that I use. Lord father, I haven't really been a good friend to my peers either. So Lord, please show and guide me in the way that you want me to go. And I will gladly follow.

Father, alot of things has been happening these few days. Please bless the people who are affected and reveal to them a little of your grace and glory. Help them to not grief over the unpleasant stuff for long, but open their hearts and minds to your word. Lord, please bless one of my close friend abundantly and give the both of us strength to pull through this period in her life. Remind her that you are always there for her and use this experience to teach her something new. I love you Lord Jesus.

AMEN! (:

I still can't express how I feel.

2007-05-19T20:38:00.000+08:00

OUR SECRET HIDEOUT <333

Today was super fun! Although the day passed by in the blink of an eye, many memories were unforgettable. It was one of the best days I had after the exams I must say. Thanks to Shahera, Cheryl, Tim and Joel! (:

THANK YOU PEOPLE! <333

we shall do this again, soon :D

Hmmm, I shall let the pictures do the talking:

US! (: in our secret hideout @ IKEA!

Joel acting cute as usual! (:

Cheryl's model pose! (:

Tim's classic! :/

Is he funny or hilarious? :D

Double S! <3

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Though today was kinda happy, life has its share of good and bad.

BAD NEWS! :'(

I might not be seeing you anymore.
It's bad enough that I don't see you very often... it'll be worse if I don't see you at all.
Why?!?!?!
It's ok, I will pray very, very, very, very hard.
I'm sure the Lord will answer my prayers! (:

I see light at the end of the tunnel! (((((:

2007-05-17T21:53:00.000+08:00

ICE CUBES (:

The sent of vasoline in the summertime
The feel of an ice cube
Melting overtime
The world seems bigger
Than both of us
Yet it seems so small when I begin to cry

I've found the answer to all my troubles, and surprisingly, it all started with me. Yes, I'm the root of all my problems.

My heart's like ice, so cold and numb to all your nonsense. I try not to give you the cold treatment, but I can't help it, it's just my way of saying thanks to all the troubles and problems that arrived with your presence.

I'm starting to move on, step by step, like a person receiving physiotherapy, I'm learning to walk little by little. But before you go, there's one more favour I need from you. I need you to be the railing. I need your support, cause without it, I can't even stand, let alone walk. Just before you go. You're part of my essentials.

I seriously don't know what I'm gonna do after you leave.

With God's help, I'm sure I'll pull through (:

2007-05-16T19:28:00.000+08:00

MOTIVATION. <3

Isn't motivation important? To me, it's the root of all actions. Without it, we wouldn't have the courage and confidence to do what we're supposed to do.

Guess what his motivation was? (Bernice and Anisha, shhhhhhhh!)

FULL STORY.
change agents on the train from Tampines to Bugis (:

Scene 1 - Tampines.
Change Agents: Hurry, hurry get on the train.
Ashley: Eh, Sam! Come over to this side, more space here!
(Sam walks over to the green carriage)
(Shuai ge boards train, sits down, separated from friends)

Scene 2 - Simei.
(Bernice sits on a seat, opp. the shuai ge, in front of a siao lang)
(Ashley snatched Sam's place and sat beside her)
Sam: ASH! It's my place, get up, I wanna sit!
Ash: No! (:
Sam: Please, be a gentleman!!! Please...
Ash: No! ((:
Sam: Fine! Bernice, hold my bag! I don't want it to get contaminated. ):

Scene 3 - Bedok (I think)
(Guy gets up from corner seat)
(Sam immediately sits)
(Anisha sits beside Sam)
(Place opp. Sam vacant, shuai ge moves over!!!, next to his friends)
Old uncle: Does your school teach you manners?
Anisha: Uh, yes it does...
Old uncle: Good, nowadays, teenagers have manners, which is good.
Anisha and Sam: Yea!
Old uncle: Last time when I was teaching... blah blah blah.
(Fast forward)

Scene 4 - Kembangan (or somewhere around there)
Anisha: Sam, I'm bored. There aren't any shuai ges here.
Sam (defensive mode): But there's one sitting opp. me! (:
(Sam grins widely)
Anisha: YEA!
(Anisha's eyes light up)
Sam: But his fat friend isn't that pleasant to look at!
(Anisha and Sam giggles)

Scene 5 - Bugis
(Change Agents get off the train)
Ash: Hurry up lah!
Sam: You go first! (:
(Waits for everyone to go before alighting)
Shuai ge: )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
Fat friend: Eh, why so sad arh?
(Sam ahm chios)

Scene 6 - Bugis control station
(Sam tells Anisha)
(Anisha and Sam tell Bernice)
(Bernice nods violently and agrees that the shuai ge IS shuai)
Bernice: Wow, he is really shuai man! (:
(Three mad girls laughing at their madness)

ROMANTIC or AMOROUS? (:
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on a side note, here's a meaningful message that i shared with a bestie:

Me: Guys really are a bit screwed up. (it's an understatement, i know)
She: Ya and to think that we like them. Sigh, I think we're nuts...
Me: Yea, but I definitely love you more!
She: Me too, Love ya! But, thinking about it, they must think we're nuts cause they get themselves but they don't get us... haha.
Me: TOTALLY! just like how we get ourselves but not them (:

Sometimes, I feel like a fool. Guys are humans. No point wasting precious memory space, salty tears, valuable time on them... Maybe girls are the ones that are screwed up (now, that is a HUGE understatement).

(:

now, i'm really confused. my head contradicts my heart. tell me what should i do. i think i should forget you and start focusing. but i don't think i can. you need to help me to forget you. you're the root and the solution. :'(
my heart hurts.

2007-05-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

RANDOMNESS #8.

this song makes me think of my future...

stupid quiz.
there's a reason why it's called IMPOSSIBLE (:
hahaha.

i love this song.
and i miss this song.
boy, i love and miss you too.

i can't wait,
i can't deny,
i won't know,
until i try.

smiles (:
: mega-watt
: million dollar
: drop dead gorgeous

sorry, excuse me, but i'm being kind of random here, don't worry if you don't understand, it's just meant for me (:
me and my ego, wtv.

2007-05-13T20:27:00.000+08:00

THE IMPOSSIBLE QUIZ! (:

The Impossible Quiz

GO HERE!

I only managed to get to qustion 42.

Try it! (:

2007-05-06T20:00:00.000+08:00

060507 <33333

I JUST HAVE TO BLOG.

Today was GREAT! (:
"My imagination was running wild."
OK, do not think dirty, it's nothing dirty.

For the whole time that we were close, haha, it was cool man!
But something unbelievable happened - you talked to me! (:
I'm so happy, you know.
I couldn't stop grinning from ear to ear seriously!:D
I thought that it was highly unlikely, but you did it!
And 'tou xiao' is THE word to use dude!

HMMM, now I think I'm gonna change my mind.
060507 - best day in ages!
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05 = you
without you i won't know what to do.
06+07-05 = me
you are my remedy (;

2007-05-02T18:51:00.000+08:00

I HATE PEOPLE WHO GIVE ME FALSE HOPES.
SERIOUSLY, WHY MUST THEY DO THAT.
I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.

STOP;
right now.

:(

Beautiful memories rolled by in her mind, but it was stained with hurt, loss and pain. Lonliness and discouragement had been her constant companion for the past weeks. She felt an inexpressible rage trapped in her chest and she HAD to get it out, now. She wished she could rewind time and freeze it at those blissful moments, but no one can live on a platter of hope. Words without actions are nothing. The more she tried to accept reality, the more her rage accumulated. Her smouldering rage rose to a climax and she could tolerate it no more.

I wish I didn't have eyes, so that I can live with the fact that you're trustworthy.
I wish I didn't have ears, so that I can live with the fact that you're always a hero.
I wish I didn't have a heart, so that I don't need to bear with this excruciating pain.
I wish I didn't have a brain, so that I can never be brainwashed.

PLEASE, STOP IT.

2007-05-01T20:13:00.000+08:00

IF YOU'RE NOT THE ONE.

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it,
I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms.

<3
it's always against me.

2007-04-27T16:06:00.000+08:00

SUNFLOWERS <3

To all the sunflower lovers out there, this entry is specially for you! (:

MY FAVOURITE ORANGE SUNFLOWER! :D

"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end." - Ecc 3:11

don't worry, sunshine, you'll ALWAYS be beautiful in the eyes of God.

2007-04-24T21:41:00.000+08:00

RANDOMNESS #7.

My God did all this:

<333

THE STAND <3

you stood before creation,
eternity in your hands.
and you spoke the earth into motion,
my soul now to stand. (:

Thank you Lord for doing all this for us, wretched sinners. You created the universe in 6 days and in this period, you created everything big and microscopic. From the gigantic leviathan right down to microscopic atoms, from the mountains to the seas, from the earth to the universe. Thank you Lord, for giving me eyes to appreciate your beautiful masterpieces of handiwork, thank you for giving me ears to listen intently to the melodious tune of nature, thank you Lord for giving me a nose to breathe in fresh scents, thank you for giving me a sense of touch to feel the unique textures of your wonderful creations. Not forgetting Lord, a mouth to preach your word to others who have not had the best privilege of knowing you. Please use me Lord, be it by mouth or actions to show the world that You are the one and only living God. Empower me with the strength and courage to go forth and guide me in whatever I do.

AMEN! (:

2007-04-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

RANDOMNESS #6.

A picture of my heart:

My emotions are all mixed up, feelings out of place. My heart's a fragile item.

Like this rubiks cube, easy to jumble, difficult to solve.

Like colours on this rubiks cube, it consists of anger, sadness, jealousy, craziness and more craziness.

i'm not missing you. should i? should i not?

2007-04-20T23:59:00.001+08:00

FRIDAY the 20th (:

Finally, my long awaited post. Anisha, there are more surprises in store, read on! (:

Hehe, today, kick started off with a GREAT BEGINNING. Although we didn't win anything, from the dragon boating, but we did gain lots of experience and fun! And congrats to us for being the most improved team! DMN, we rock da house! (: So, when we arrived there at 8.30, half-an-hour later than the reporting time, we were kinda energetic and pumped up for it! And as we were walking along the reservoir, guess who i saw??? HH, HIM! But, it was a false alarm, the person was merely a look alike ): pfft. Luckily I didn't embarrass myself by saying 'hi', which I almost wanted to do. So then, we found a dry spot to place our backs and wasted no time in starting our warm ups. In the blink of an eye, literally, it was our turn - LANE 4! LOL. KC, was in lane 5 (last years' champs). Fortunately this was just a trial and we came in last by just a few seconds. Albeit practise, we still came in last so... no point. And I got a little burnt, well, just my cheeks and nose (:
*ANISHA: there were lots of eye candies there, compared to the guys in our sch(peanuts), they were like so hot, hotter than SOONG (: And guess which sch they came from? :D

After the finals, we got our bags and left with aching arms and lethargic spirits, to the kopitiam in Temasek Poly. EAT EAT EAT, then headed back to sch, while Shahera and Cheryl ps me :/
And congrats to our netball 'C' division, they're NATIONAL CHAMPS! woots! (:
*ANISHA: continue reading, nothing interesting at this point (:

Due to my high metabolic rate, the food that went into my stomach at 12, apparently digested so fast that I was hungry at 4. But have no fear, Mrs VJ is here! (: She treated us to Ben&Jerry's!!! WOW! (: So sweet of her right! Hmmm, before heading to ACJC to watch the finals of the 'C' and 'B' divison of the JGC, I da-paoed the new double fillet fish meal, eh-hem, not that nice actually... SO, not worth a shot. Then, slowly, made our way to ACJC. Got there. missed the stop, went into the LH sweating and stinking like a pig! ): lol.
*ANISHA: at this point, you must realise that what's gone is gone, no B&J's for you. AND, there were even MORE eyecandies there! ((: I can't stop thinking abt one of the debaters. Fill you in on monday.

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I don't think I've been myself lately, either that or I've changed.
Or maybe it's the raging hormones, a passing fad?

But I'm glad i walk closer with God, that's the only thing in my life that's improved ever since. And that's the only thing I'll need to sustain me.

A BIG BIG thanks to my friends who've been there for me all along, and special thanks to the one that i've been getting closer and closer to this week ((:

If we don't leave the old things behind, how're we gonna let new things come? I'm glad that I made that choice to clear my name, but I'm dropping hints like nobody's business, can you see them? (:
it's ok if you don't cause it's impossible anyway.

Love - the irresistable desire to be irresitably desired. <3

2007-04-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
you'll probably think i'm mad, but if you're in my shoes... you'll realise that i'm not mad enough.

the thing about falling in love is that if you do it right, you never have to touch the ground;

2007-04-15T20:50:00.000+08:00

GREATNESS (:

is when family members support you all the way.
is when friends stand by you through thick and thin.
is when you get the tingling sensation whenever he's around.
is when you lend your shoulder to a person in need.
is when you appreciate and count your blessings.
is when you grasp the essence of life.
is when you can see your bright future clearly.
is when you can count on an unfailing and endless love.
is when you have the Lord as your saviour :D

now THAT'S greatness.

2007-04-12T21:15:00.000+08:00

LIFE :D

This topic is so extensive, but I'm only gonna say what I have to say.

Today, as I was watching a documentary on Discovery channel, it shocked me. Real bad. Suddenly I realised how fortunate and privileged I am. This powerful documentary left me stupefied and deep in thought. It was about people who had terminal and incurable diseases and how they lived life. As minutes passed, I got more and more engrossed in the programme and I really felt like crying and bawling (sorry, i'm usually emo over these kinda stuff).

There were these three men that left an indelible impression in my memory and I sincerely pray that the Lord will bless them wherever they are, in whatever they do. Because of these three men, they have taught me to be more appreciative of my limbs, facial expressions, facial features, and much more.

Guy 1: Double amputee who lost both limbs on Mt. Cook in New Zealand. He worked with his friend to develop two prostethic limbs which were revised again and again before he made his way to Mt. Everest. I don't know if he's made it or not, but even if he hasn't or did not make it down alive, his living testimony is already good enough. He has showed me the real meaning of endurance, patience and persevereance. After he amputated his legs (due to frostbite), he said that there was just ONE thing that he could do, and that is to stop lamenting over his plot and move on in life. I really take my hat off! :D

Guy 2: Stricken with a disease that paralyses the whole body and even facial movements and expressions. It's an incurable disease that left him paralysed until a state where he could only move his eyebrows! Saddening isn't it! :'( However, as technology improves, he would be able to communicate with the world and be independent soon. Doctors are developing a computer-controlled brain for him so that without speaking, he would be able to communicate with others. RAD! (:

Guy 3: Also with a terminal disease. Really bad case, however he is one of the oldest surviving person with this disease. I don't know the name of it but it's a sickness that attacks the skin, so he goes around with bandages wrapped all around his body. At a touch, his skin can sort of disintergrate and start to peel. So he has to be very meticulous with his actions. Sadly, he does not have fingers, but he can drive and even type! :D He mentioned that he didn't want people to pity him, but he wanted people to cherish what they have :'''(

Thank you Lord for giving me hands, feet, a sense of touch and sight. Thank you for reminding me to be appreciative of it. Oh Lord, I just cannot thank you enough for all you have done for me. No amount of words can express how much gratitude I have now. Lord, thank you for the living testimonies and examples that look on the bright side of life. Compared to them, our problems seem very minute. Father, I pray that you'll keep everyone around me safe and sound and take care of everyone. Thank you for making me physically beautiful, but what You see is our spiritual beauty. And THAT is what counts. Life would be pointless if we had good looks, great minds and great wealth, because what really IS great, is our character. Lord, You are the potter, I am the clay, please mould me and make me into something that You would like to show the world. Send me and I will go forth :D

IN MY LIFE, YOUR WILL BE DONE.
i will go to the ends of the earth.

2007-04-11T21:42:00.000+08:00

SUNDDENLY I SEE :D

Today, I finally got rid of that feeling that I have been keeping inside. Tough mental battle.

Thank you Lord for enlightening me and filling me with your love, grace and peace. I was blind, now I see. Forever my praise will go to Thee! Father, I just pray that you'll continue to guide me and remind me that You are always here for me. Lead the way and I will gladly follow. Grant me steady feet to stand rooted to Your word in times of fear, temptation and sin. Grant me a steady mind to meditate on your word when troubles and sorrow gather up in my path. Lord, please remind me constantly of Your love that is unswerving, steadfast and endless, for only Your love is sufficient for me. Forever my praise will go to Thee! I will never cease to sing Your praises :D
AMEN! <3

I was blind, now I see.
Love has got a hold on me.

2007-04-09T22:43:00.000+08:00

RANDOMNESS #5.

I always thought that rainy days meant good things were gonna happen, but today proved me otherwise.

THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME (:
it's your love, that lifted me up from the depths.

2007-04-08T17:07:00.000+08:00

EASTER AND ME<3.

Today, has taught me how to open my eyes and tune my ears to whatever is happening around me. SERIOUSLY, is my antenna THAT short? HAHA, nvm. And as easter brought a new bieginning in the bible, it has also brought a new beginning into my life. Life's more than what your eyes see.Easter has given me a glimpse of the real life and at the same time enlightened mine. Easter has broaden my perspective of situations and in the process brought forth hope for me. And as the sermon title says: Friday cannot be good without Easter! AMEN! :D

How I wish that I could freeze time and sit back to take a breather.
How I wish that I could freeze time and view it from a third person's view.
How I wish that I could freeze time to fix my mistakes.
How I wish that I could freeze time and think.
How I wish that I could freeze time and watch it in a playback mode.

As I was having a heart-to-heart talk with her today, I really felt like crying. Not because of what she said, nor was it because of what she did, but because of what I haven't been doing and saying. And I promise all the things that were mentioned there and then will stay between the four walls and in my heart till the end of time.

I wish I could view my entire life NOW, in a video mode.
I wish my wishes could come true.

When it all falls apart, you have to pick yourself up and bravely face the world (which is what i hate). And it is true, from a third person's view it isn't as easy as you think it is.

LIFE is not easy to live. But with God, it's a breeze.

SERMON! <3

Greater love, the world had never known.

2007-04-07T10:52:00.000+08:00

AMOR :D

Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Then what am I feeling, what am I doing wrong?
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Is this an illusion that I have in my heart?

<3333.
where'd you i miss you so?

2007-04-05T16:27:00.000+08:00

STUFF ABOUT SAM! :D

These are somethings you should know about her:

Sam's weird habits:

I like the smell of nail polish, whiteboard markers and diesel :D
I cry when I read Chicken Soup.
I cry when I watch Charity Shows.
I hate to tie shoe-laces.
I cannot sleep without a bolster :D
I love the smell and sound of rain on concrete.
I love to bite on ice cubes.

Sam's aphrodisiacs:

CHOCOLATES are the absoulte love; esp dark ones.
ANISHA!!! <333
GENTLEMEN! i'm a total sucker.
PHOTOGRAPHY - memories are precious :)
TRAVEL - after I retire :D
RAINBOWS <33.

Sam's pet peeves:

Stray birds and cats.
Playboys and flirts :P
Ego-istic men ://
Dead knots/ pun.
Humour-less people, how'd you survive?

This is a freaky entry, ain't it?
I didn't know we were so alike, eh :)
I know all your secrets :D

2007-04-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

RANDOMNESS #4.

On my way back from the stadium, i saw this:

can you spot a heart?

a sign or a natural phenomenon? <3

and this:

bubble :D on grass!

In my life Your will be done <3

2007-04-04T20:26:00.000+08:00

DMN SPORTS HEATS '07! :)

Today was super BORING! Although it was a half-day, and we had to report at 1.45pm sharp at the sports stadium, it was still BORING :P Actually, Cheryl, Tim, Anisha and I were supposed to meet up at Long John's to celebrate a special occasion. However I couldn't make it as I had an errand to run. Till now, this errand is still undone. Haha, I have no idea where to get it! RAHH! Nevermind...

So after the errand, met up with Ash and Wei Jie for lunch at the food court. Ordered a plate of fried carrot cake and only managed to eat half of it and when the aunty came to clean it up, she had to ask me thrice before she finally realised that I really didn't want it anymore. :), I know, I know, but it was kinda horrible lah! And the milo that was supposed to quench my thirst was so sweet that I regretted drinking it. And I choked on an ice cube. YES, AN ICE CUBE! I love biting on them! :D Actually I didn't choke on it, more like I swallowed an ice cube, whole mind you, down my oesophagus. And I survived. The feeling was so weird! I could practically feel the peristalsis pushing the ice cube into my stomach. Hot, cold, hot, cold. Eww, horrible experience :/

After lunch, we made our way down to the stadium and met up with our classmates. At 1.55, we were forced to stand under the sweltering sun for 15min to sing our school song, and luckily, I brought my umbrella and used it to save myself from the baking sun. But I still got SUNBURNT! ARGH! :P My cheeks are burning even as I'm writing this post. So finally, after eons, we returned back to the stands. (If any of you are wondering why I'm not running or participating, I did take part in Capt's Ball, and lost.) So today was mostly cheering and shouting for me. However, we only won the females 400m category. ONLY.

But nvm, 3A, I STILL LOVE YOU! :D
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANISHA DEAREST! <333
The Lord loves you and so do I! :D
And I owe you a pressie!

And I just realised I have a flare for athletes; esp track and field and footballers.
They're the hottest. Look at how Mr Song ran.
LOL. Joking...
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" They say a person needs just these things to be truly happy in this world: someone to love, something to do, and something to hope for." -Tom Bodett.

NOW I CAN BOLDLY SAY THAT I AM TRULY HAPPY.
how's that? :D

2007-04-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

REKINDLED LOVE (it means nothing).

Awww, I DON'T BELIEVE YOU!
Big, fat liar! :)
You deserved to be punked!
i don't know why but this word just popped into my mind.

MR PERIODIC TABLE, where are you???
Absence makes the heart grow fonder - so I'll wait, but don't keep me waiting soo long.
The way you say 'hi' and 'bye' and 'yes' and 'no' and that heart-warming smile of yours <3.

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And you, DON'T DESERVE this treatment.
I'm terribly sorry.
I'll meet you in heaven and I'll be more than happy to apologise a million times.
You still are my friend and always will be.
I'm so glad to hear that, and no words can express how I feel now.
Prob a combi of gratefulness, joy, fear, anger, excitement, shock and love is as close as I can get.
this is sincerely from the deepest depth of my heart.

i'll sleep with a smile on my face, promise <3
i've got lots more to say, but none as important as these.

2007-04-01T20:43:00.000+08:00

APRIL FOOLS :P

HAHAHA,
to all those that were tricked by me.
the joke's on you :D
&
GO DIE,
to all those who tricked me :D

This april fools was FUN FUN FUN! Sooo many people forgot about it! But I remembered! :D haha, and sooo many people got tricked by me. Well, I played a very simple and traditional joke.

Sam: "Urh... your fly's unzipped!'
???: "HUH?! Really?" (frantically looks down to check)
ROFLMAOROFLMAO!

I must say that Ber, Vivien, Ryan, Bert and Amy's reactions were the FUNNIEST!
BER: HUH? (glanced down frantically, fiddled with his fly)
sam: NO LAH! Happy April Fool's! :D
VIVIEN: SERIOUS?! (shoved her stuff to me and tried to zip it)
sam: HAHA, Happy April Fool's! :D
RYAN: OH!!! (looks down, realises he's wearing pants without fly)
sam: (by this time, i'm really red in the face) Happy April Fools! :)
BERT: HUH?! REALLY? (looks down and tugs on his fly)
sam: APRIL FOOLS! (got a slap on my arm for it!)
AMY: (played 2 funny pranks on her, ROFL)
sam: APRIL FOOLS!!!! HAHA! :D
(Even as I type, people are getting pranked by yours truly :D)

ain't i HORRIBLE?! ;)

But, what goes around comes around...
And I got pranked by mummy, brother, sam liew, anisha, many more :D
Thanks, you light up my life! <3

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MR PERIODIC TABLE! come back.
won't get to see you anytime soon huh?
awww, i'll miss you to bits, millions and billions and gazillions of tiny little microsopic bits!
your debut, your interval, your finale. <33333333333333333333333333333333333333

2007-03-31T22:15:00.000+08:00

1,000,000.

A million thoughts are flying through my brain now;
I'll see what I can catch.

LOVE.
You :'(
how to save a life???
LTC camp 2006 :DD
LTC camp 2007 :((
dragon-boating :D
school :P
LOVE.
Sports day 2007
Good Friday <3
April Fool's :)))
6/6 Faith :D
1D
2A
CIP???
NYAA???????
LOVE.
nature <3
pictures :D
A-math :(
E-math :((
Common Test
L1R5
Tampines Mall?
MY FUTURE:
LOVE.
Perth <33
Moo-moo <333
Ben and Jerry's :D
Traffic lights?
Sunday.
Cam-whoring.
LOVE.
LOVE.
To-do list:
Heaven <33

love, sweet love.

come rescue me.

2007-03-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

THE TRUTH :P

about Sam is:

she's a b****
she's egocentric
she doesn't have a sense of responsibility
she has a serious case of STM
she doesn't have a life
she screws up
she's weird and freaky
she's a deluded moron

do you still wanna be her friend?

2007-03-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

CAMWHORE <3

Here's what you wanted:

'You're not into it?' :D (insider's info required)

Cheryl and me :)

CHANGE AGENTS ROCK :DD

So does ANISHA! <333

:D it's alright, because we've tried our best.

2007-03-27T16:23:00.000+08:00

BYE-BYE.

As I was sitting on the black leather stool in the dental van, I thought about lots of stuff. Did a sorta 'samantha check' on myself and realised that I've been 'emo-tic' this entire week and the week before. And I feel so bad for the people that I've subconsciously used as punching bags/anger vents/blah blah. Sorry to Ash, Wei Kwang, Joel, Cheryl, Tim, Winnie... and the list goes on. Tsk, what has become of me???

i've really given up, really.
glad to know you've moved on, but i haven't, so gimme some time.

There were some stuff that I wanted to say, but I have STM so...
I'll end off with this:

'What you keep to yourself you lose, what you give away, you keep forever.' -Axel Munthe

'Love is a wonderful thing. you never have to take it away from one person to give it to another. There's always more than enough to go around. It's kinda like a giant rubberband that strethes to surround all the people you care about.' -Pamela J. deRoy

ok, i think i've moved on now :D

2007-03-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

LOVE.

God is love, amen! Love is a very powerful emotion that can make or break someone's confidence, trust, life even. Looking at things, haha, I'm not sure if I can carry on. Love seems like a big thing to handle, however the smallest things like asking a little simple question of 'how's your day' or 'are you ok' really makes a difference. From a third person's view, relationships look like a piece of cake, but is it actually?

As we grow, we learn.
As we learn, we progress.
As we progress, we leave things behind.

2007-03-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

LEAVE ME BE.

I hate to see people leave. Lost, agony, stress are just some of the feelings that ebb my strength away. I feel so enervated when someone leaves my side. Don't know why but it's one one my most dreaded feelings, and I can cry when I think of it. Anyway, I have no idea how this topic came about but I don't wanna dwell on it any longer.

So, today was BAD BAD BAD. Most of my CT marks are out and my, my, my... I don't have a single A! Not that badly surprised or anything, but I so disappointed with myself. And in addition, I've also caused my parents to be disappointed. My marks are seriously not worth mentioning cause the reader will die of shock.

I really don't have the drive and energy to study hard this year. Although our prelims don't count ,and we have SPA, etc, I still don't feel intimidated by these changes :(
BLEAH >.<

let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.let it go.

2007-03-20T21:53:00.000+08:00

A FAMILY FOR FREDDIE <3

This story is narrated by a worker who works at an adoption home and when she saw this little cute boy, she was sort of attatched to him at first sight. This beautiful baby boy (Freddie) has thick curls, brown eyes, and is very smart for a 10 month old baby (he could speak). However, he had no arms. Poor thing right. He was up for adoption.

So there was this old couple who were childless and poor and they decided to adopt him. Wait. This is how it goes: (it moved me to tears)

"That long? (to adopt another boy)" Mr Pearson said. "Don't you have anyone at all. There must be a little boy somewhere." After a pause he went on, "Of course, we can't give him as much as other people. We haven't alot of money saved up."
"We've got a lot of love, " his wife said. "We've saved up a lot of that."

Awwwwwww... so touching right. :')
Wait there's another part...
This was when he arrived at his new house.

Freddie looked back at me for a moment. Then, turning, he walked slowly toward them (Mr and Mrs Pearson), and they reached out their arms and gathered him in.

Wahhhh.

Adapted from

'A 4th course of Chicken Soup for the Soul'

2007-03-19T21:11:00.000+08:00

SENTOSA! :D

Was super great!

Was super burnt!

Was super tiring!

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I'm so mentally and emotionally tired.

2007-03-18T18:22:00.000+08:00

A LOVELY story that I took from Shermaine's blog :)

A student asks a teacher,

"What is love?" The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick." The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he started to realize that the padi was not as big as the previous one he saw, he knew he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted !!!!

So, he ended up going back to the teacher empty handed. The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already missed the person...."

"What is marriage then?" the student asked. The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick. "The student went to the corn field, this time he was careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reached the middle of the field, he picked one medium corn that he feels satisfied with, and went back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."

Awww... isn't it nice. It almost brought tears to my eyes :)

i feel like crying and dying.
srsly.
sunburn+lovelorn= P . A . I . N

2007-03-17T08:31:00.000+08:00

MOMENTS I WANT TO RELIVE <3

These are some of the many moments that I would like to relive. If only I could turn time back or stop it.

Be at my Grandad's side before he left <3
Sarawak with 6/6 peeps!
Disney World and Universal Studios :D
Nigara Falls and The Statue of Liberty
My Uncle's wedding (I was the flowergirl, you see :D)
Be bold to tell him stuff.
My PSLE exam days.
Be nice to you and wish that did not happen.
911 and 2412
Last Christmas. And the Christmas before that. And the Christmas before that.
Last CNY.
Ask him everything - confession.
LTC camp.
Sec 1 O camp.
ALL my Perth trips!
CT. arhhhhh...
220107
140207
040307
180307

Can't seem to remember anything else. Hmm...

2007-03-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

~~!are you fiction or fact?~~
~~!love/hate?~~
~~!it's not the way you say it, it's what you said.~~
~~!maybe you're the one for me, but i'm not the one for you.~~
~~!how can i forget you?~~

2007-03-16T09:36:00.000+08:00

DUBAI :D

Ok, so some people have been asking me about my display name.

"sam wants to go to DUBAI for her honeymoon"

So, I'm blogging about it for the benefit of them and also to share the wonderful attractions of Dubai!

First up, the Burj Al Arab Hotel in Dubai. It's a 5/6 star hotel and only people who are dining or staying there are allowed to go in. And according to real experiences, a dinner there for 2 people can cost up to US$500 each. In addition, each table has its own waiter waiting to serve you. RAD! There's more, but I'm not gonna say everything, because there's alot.

The first thing that inspired me was a video by Ronan Keating. His music video of 'Iris' featured him filming on the helicopter landing pad. The video was nice, and so was the scenery! It's absolutely wonderful.

Next, is the Palm island. This man-made wonder has been crowned "The Eighth World Wonder". Palm island is a residential and entertainment area. Villas, homes and shoreline apartments are in Jumeirah , whereas water homes, theme parks, marinas, etc can be found in Jebel Ali (which is 50% bigger than Jumeirah). Jebel Ali is still undergoing construction and is expected to be completed by the end of this year. Deira, is the largest of the three palm islands. Mostly used for housing, it contains 8,000 two-storey villas/town homes.

The Palm, Deirah.

Last but not least, is another man-made wonder called 'The World'. Comprising of a collection of man-made islands shaped into the continents of the world that are located off the coast of Dubai in the United Arab Emirates. Michael Schumacher owns an island (US $6.85 million each).

The World <3

How can I not go to Dubai for my honeymoon? :D

2007-03-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

THE SWING. <3

The shiny metal chain jerked with tension as she sat on the rubbery-plastic seat of the swing. The hinges creaked and cackled loudly as she swung back and forth, kicking the wet sand between her feet that left brown tracks as she moved back and forth. Music was blasting from the Ipod, drowning all noise from the environment.

That fat woman has been swinging for the past 20 minutes. When is she ever gonna stop man? It's our turn!

Her pink cap fastened her hair in place, so that whenever the wind blew, her hair would remain perfectly intact. Her long legs seemed to be made of steel, for they never grew tired after kicking them back and forth in the air for 30 minutes straight. The sky was growing darker and darker by the minute. And it was time to head home.

It's gonna rain soon. Poot her, I'll come back tomorrow.

&cause she's loving him still, after all this time.

2007-03-15T14:44:00.000+08:00

MACARONS! <3

11 Unity Street,
#01-09 Robertson Walk
Singapore 237995

:D

To find out about macarons/macaroons click this:
http://www.canele.com.sg/catalogue.htm

MACARONS ROCK MY SOCK! WOOTS! :D
you turn me on <3

2007-03-15T12:40:00.000+08:00

INTERNET :)

WOOTS! Finally, after 4 days without internet. I MISS YOU! Ok, so you guys must be wondering what I've been doing during the past few days when I wasn't online. Nothing much, just rotting the holidays away. This holiday was as unproductive as the previous one.

WEEKEND
Ok, on Saturday, our whole family went for a famiy dinner with the Chans at the S'pore Island Country Club. Too bad Trish couldn't make it cause she went to watch TiTouDao. Tim's transformation is like WHOA, he transformed from the cute little paige-boy, to the macho army-guy sia. LOL. Still a gentleman though. Dinner ended at 9.30+ and we were the last ones to leave the whole club, hehe. Oh and the food was just scrumptuous. Mmm-lah-lah.

Blogged abt Sunday already.

MONDAY
Went to watch THE PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS! (: It's so wonderful I tell you. And I was crying like 75% throughout the whole movie. It was really touching and Jaden Smith is so CUTE! But what really shocked me was that this film is based on a true story. Amazing. Rating: 4.5/5

TUESDAY

Went to Macs for a study session, and I barely completed my Chinese compo. Argh. So frustrating and irritating. Stupid chinese. Poot you lah. So after the not-so-fruitful 3 hours (yes, 3. My chinese seriously sucks), Alicia, Wei Jie and I headed over to TM to jalan-jalan. Wei Jie wanted to go to the arcade even though he was wearing his jersey, stupid fool. Then he went off to play his basketball game while Alicia and I went racing! We lost. Nevermind. After his game, he went to play some shooting thingy and got caught. Unfortunately, he had to leave even before the game officially started. Gave the last coin to us and we played air hockey! So fun! Alicia was winning at first, but after some change in luck, I won. Hehe, no I didn't cheat. At around 5.30 we parted.

WEDNESDAY
Nothing much. Had to go to school for change agents. Went out with Ashley, Shaheed, Tim and Cheryl for lunch at Mr Prata's. LOL. Food was crap, only ordered a milo dino (: In the evening, met mummy at Eastpoint to make my new specs! Nothing nice there, so we went to the usual optic shop at Loyang Point. Actually, I wanted to cut my hair, but Lena wasn't around :( Then took a shortcut and walked through the pasa malam! All in all, there were like 9 Ramley Burger stalls. Tsk tsk, tough competition.

TODAY
Dad took half day to supervise the men that were coming to fix this internert up. He was furious and as usual caused alot of problems for them. Poor salesppl, I pity those who have to work with my dad, it's not easy.
I feel like watching STOMP THE YARD! When I saw the shots, I was like "I MUST catch this movie!" The only problem is... no time and cash!!! :(

&Absence makes the heart grow fonder <3
&I miss you!

2007-03-11T18:36:00.000+08:00

110307 <3

Haha, yays! today was totally FUN FUN FUN!!! Finally, we went to Izbella's house after weeks of procrastination :D

Okay, so after ministry fair, we went over to the 24 hour coffeeshop; together with Kang Wei, Jeryl and Justin, Daniel and Lydia Alicia, Delane, Izabella, Clarice, Shakila and Jazlyn, for lunch. By that time, it was like 12.30+ and we were chatting and munching at the same time, cause we were waiting for Clarice to finish her choir practice. And Delane went to get bubble tea for us. So after she got it, we were settling down and chatting when this big burly guy came along and just practically 'poof' appeared right infront of us and warned us not to drink in the coffeeshop. Reluctantly, we had to pack up and leave - back to church. Halfway through, I gave the silly pearls to Jazlyn... practically 'transfered' it to her. Haha. So we went inside to escape from the blistering heat, and we went into Aldersgate hall. Met Jasmine there and everyone got high! Hurhur. Unfortunately, Delane, Shakila and Clarice were standing on a push cart and us, on-lookers, were like saying: 'No, it's not safe, get down before you fall.' However, Delane was like: 'Oh, I wanna fall down.' HAHA. And she got her wish. Jasmine gave a hard tug and the three of them fell on top of each other. Those playful imps :) Anyways, a plaster for Delane's arm and we were ready to go! We left at around 1.30 and reached their beautiful home :D It was seriosly gorgeous.

Haha, and we snacked on tidbits and biscuits. I was so pleased when I got to sit the go-cart. It was so fun! And there was this swing hanging at the balcony. It creaked when I sat on it. Bleah :P I NEED to go on a diet. Haiz. So anyway, we were discussing stuff and Lydia had to leave :( at around 2.45. So we were happily discussing when someone mentioned flying fox. Then Izabella's mum suggested why not go to Pasir Ris Park, where there's a flying fox. So in the blink of an eye (ok, not really we had to put sun-block and choose hats. I was wearing a white cowboy hat! :D), we were ready to go. After sardine-packing in the car, we finally set off and 10 minutes later, we could whiff the salty smell of the ocean. So after another 5 min of delaying, we finally went to climb the spider web (well, I could only manage to get onto the first layer). Delane and Izabella were as nimble as monkeys, they managed to get close to the top :P. Then Shakila came up with this rad idea for all of us to climb the kiddy spider web and then embark on the bigger one. So yea alright, we climbed to the top of the hill and started to scale the web. The holes were so tiny that I barely managed to fit it and slide down (okay, so maybe i'm fat).

Then after climbing the little kiddie web, Jazlyn, Clarice and I did not feel like climbing the big one so we went to walk along the shore. And just relax. In the end, Clarice came up, soaking wet and Shakila too! The rest of us only wadded till our knee level. So we played and played and took lots of photos (to be uploaded later). We were so high that we started to sing our benediction and Christian songs :D. Time just like flew by. And it was already 5.15 - time to go home :(

Couldn't bear to go home. Aunty had to drive me and Jazlyn home cause our parents were waiting and besides the others were 'luo tang jis' haha. Seriously enjoyed myself. So wanna have this again! :D

FEMALE BONDING. WOOTS! :D

2007-03-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

BUTTERFLYYYYY <33

A butterfly is an insect of the order Lepidoptera, from either of the superfamilies Hesperiodia (the skippers) or Papilionoidea (all other butterflies). Some authors have also suggested the inclusion of the superfamily Hedyloidea, the American butterfly moths. They are notable for their unusual life cycle with a larval caterpillar stage, an inactive pupal stage and a spectacular metamorphosis into a familiar and colourful winged adult form. The diverse patterns formed by their brightly coloured wings and their erratic-yet-graceful flight have made butterfly watching a popular hobby.

Unlike many insects, butterflies do not experience a nymph period, but instead go through a pupal stage which lies between the larva and the adult stage (the imago). Butterflies are termed as holometabolous insects, and go through complete metamorphosis.
Egg
Larva, known as a caterpillar
Pupa (chrysalis)
Adult butterfly (imago)

It is a popular belief that butterflies have very short life spans. However, butterflies in their adult stage can live from a week to nearly a year depending on the species. Many species have long larval life stages while others can remain dormant in their pupal and egg stages and thereby survive winters.

a close up of a butterfly's wing. <3

marvel at it :)

God's awesome creation :D

Seriously, these creatures are so nice and breath-takingly beautiful. Have you ever stopped for a few seconds to appreciate God's beauty that we always take for granted. Not everything can be explained by science, don't forget, even science was created by God.

2007-03-05T20:19:00.000+08:00

sometimes, it's good to be deluded.
don't you think so?
anyway, i'm really upset.
thanks for letting me know.
i appreciate it.

goodbye sam.
you're really dead meat.

2007-03-04T17:48:00.000+08:00

FRIENDSHIP. <3

Nothing's as valuable as friendships! It's really a blessing to have good friends and friends that you're close with. But the greatest blessing is when you have, not many friends, nor many close friends, but it is when you have A BEST FRIEND.

Someone that has been through thin and thick with you, someone that's always there to share your joys and sorrows. Someone who'll support you all the way. Someone like that is very hard to come by right? And even if you do, maybe things might not turn out the way it should be.

But what if the person does not reciprocate your feelings. What if it was just wishful thinking on your part? What if this messes up your whole friendship and makes things even worse???

I'm sooo thankful for all the friends the Lord has given me. Without them, I wouldn't make it. Friends are GREAT people. They are the bits and pieces in life that really matter and fill your life to the brim. Think of it this way: The daily things that we go about doing are like rocks and when you fill them up in a jar, they leave BIG spaces. Then family members and relatives that encourage you along the way are like sand and when added into the jar, they fill up the spaces and leave MICROSCOPIC spaces. But friends, whom you tell every little secret to, whom you giggle with when he approaches, are like water, that fills the jar without leaving empty spaces.

Thank you dearies for being there for me. And especially YOU, my dear, YOU :D
<3 sam.
To all who treat me as their friend :), this goes out to you:

This Friend
by Girlie

I love having you as a friend,
You make my day brighter,
I'm happy with this friend I've found,
Who makes my burdens lighter.
Whenever I see you,
It makes me want to smile,
You were never too cool,
Always in Style.
Don't you ever leave me,
I'll never make you frown,
By your side I'll always be,
Especially when you're down.
Even through the worst of days,
I will be right here,
Watching you through ever faze,
Catching every tear.
You hold my feelings in your hand,
Every single one,
My friendship will forever stand,
Even when the fun is done.
So don't ever forget me,
For I will not forget you,
Here for you I will always be,
No matter what you do.
If others could feel as free,
As I feel with this Friend,
Friendship and warmth is all they'd see,
And love would never end.

AMAZED.

2007-03-02T19:19:00.000+08:00

AMAZED. <3

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me, baby you surround me
You touch everyplace in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spent the whole night in your eyes

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you, it just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life with you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Oh, every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you

samantha's pursuit of happyness (:
help me, will you?

DOUBLE YAYNESS!!! <33

2007-02-27T21:38:00.001+08:00

DOUBLE YAYNESS!!! <33

Whoa, I had sooo much fun today! Podcasting and all :) A.C.S rocks my socks!!! We had like so much fun today. Haha, shan't spill the beans. Loads of photos and memories :D well, I really wish that I could rewind and forward time. Time is very precious, it can't be bought with money or gems, it can only be remembered with the help of pictures and videos. And that was why I thought that what we did today was kinda practical. Pictures can't hurt, can they? Anyway, the ones that we took can't :) I had a really great time today, and I know that this is a blessing in disguise. This + Ber's sermon really helped me alot. And not forgetting Jasmine :) my darling!!!

To all my guy friends: Hey, you guys have 3 more years to NS, really how time flies. Beef up man... (esp my two fatty friends and 'wei kia') Jia You... and remember to visit me! Don't always kana sentry duty ok, your girl friends will be upset :)

To all my girl friends: Darlings, guys can be jerks at times, patience is golden! And don't be surprised if guys look totally different before and after, it's norm. Hopefully, NS will teach them how to cherish you more! Useless twits. One more thing, if you don't have a boyfriend yet (not that I'm encouraging BGR or anything), no worries, guys usually become more mature after NS :)

To everyone: I love you guys!!! <33

A.C.S rocks my socks!!! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!! <333

YAY!

2007-02-22T22:08:00.001+08:00

YAYNESS<3

Yay, I'm so glad that my favourite baby cousin came rund to stay with us for A WEEK!!! (: I'm gonna treat her like MY baby sister... yippee!!! (:

Speaking of that, it reminds me of something BAD that happened yesterday... oh boy :(

SORRY;

2007-02-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

SORRY;

sorry to everyone whom i've offended the past few days...
i've been having p.m.s lately and i don't feel that great.
this'll probably last for a few more days... i need time to snap out of this.
bear with me, alright?

troubles... they're part and parcel of thy miserable life.
i don't feel right.
no one can rescue me... can you?
be my knight in shining amour?

Ramparts of difficulties once again built themselves up before her, impossible to scale...

Random quiz.

2007-02-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

RANDOM QUIZ.

found 50 bucks?
hmm... keep it! :P
reward from heaven.

found a hp?-
return it! i already have one.
(if it belongs to a cutie, like you-know-who, i'll probably take a photo and ask him to call! :D)
haha, just joking :)

lost 50 bux?-
i'll be sooooo sad that i'll probably skip lunch for a week.

got an admirer?-
haha, is it a trick question?

someone gives you the latest hp?-
thank the person like DUH. and maybe a kiss and hug<3

got grey hair?-
nope. hopefully.

name for baby girl?-
haha... when the time is right :)

what you like your hair to be?-
i'm fine with it. haha :D

2007 resolution?-
be a better person!

are you aware of somebody liking you now?-
haha, i don't think so.

what you want right now?-
i want to speak to God.

do you find guys a big time liar?-
hahahaha. some jerks.

do you find girls a flirt?-
hmm... yes.

do you flirt?-
haha, i think so.

do you think you are handsome/pretty?-
haha, another trick question.

do you eat alot?-
haha, when the food's delicious :D

have you ever watch porn?-
haha, don't think so...

do you miss anyone right now?-
yes.

if you have a genie who could gif u three wishes?

wish 1: i wanna know if he feels the same way. wish 2: i wanna go back in time and correct all the mistakes i made. wish 3: i want 3 more wishes. :D

if you had 1 million $?-
keep some and donate some :)

this is IT, :)

MOVIE MANIA.

2007-02-20T19:38:00.000+08:00

MOVIE MANIA :D

movies that i wanna watch:

norbit
dreamgirls
protege
just follow law
epic movie

problem:

who?
when?
no cash??

CNY. <3

2007-02-19T16:44:00.000+08:00

CNY. <3

Hello to all who are reading this post :D Haha... Am currently blogging from Malaysia cause I'm spending CNY here!!! It's great! For as long as I remember, my family's been celebrating this festive occasion in Singapore, but this year, for a change... we decided to visit my relatives in Malaysia!!! (mind you, it's a minority) WEEEEE!!! This also means less ang baos for me :( , haha, but it's ok... money isn't everything. Haha...

Yesterday was kinda rushy-rushy. We had the usual ceremony and then we were off to church! Went to a catholic church :) and the service was very short like about 45min-1hour. And then we had snacks at Mac's and went home. Hehe... After that, went shopping at 1 Utama, whoa... it's COOL man. They have like wings. Old and New. My cousins and bro went to camp 5 while mummy, daddy and I shopppped! Camp 5 is an indoor rock-climbing gym :) which is like ultra cool. Haha...

Today was better. We woke up earlier than usual cause there were guests arriving. There were catered food and beverages and everyone was excited (shall not blog abt the bad stuff). The lasagne was gooood. After lunch we hanged around and I watched TV while the guys played with CoCo (my cousin's cute, little pet dog) and watched SouthPark. Then I joined the majority gambling downstairs (blackjack, and we're gonna continue tonight with roulette :D). Marc and Chris were winning at first but in the end, they still lost a few ringgit (the banker was hot :D). Haha, anyway, the guys abandoned me... they're playing PS2 upstairs while i'm down here blogging. Bleah :P. So anyways, to everyone...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! <3

Although it's kinda late, but better late then never!!! :D

P.S I love you.

2007-02-15T21:44:00.000+08:00

P.S I LOVE YOU.

Don't be afraid of falling in love again. Open your heart and follow where it leads you... and remember, shoot for the moon...

P.S, I will always love you...

' adapted from the book P.S, I love you'

I cried when I read that cause it was sooooo touching.

Rating: 5/5

Go pick it up!!! :D

AND.

2007-02-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

AND.

and it's been about 2 weeks since we've spoken.
and it's been about 6 months since we've talked.
and i've been nasty towards you.
and i've been a terrible friend.
and i've been M-I-A when you needed me.
and you've been patient with me.
and you've been forgiving and magnanimous.
and you've been such a great person.
and you've understood my dilemma.
and you've sailed all the way with me.
you're the first one to arrive.

and i will never forget you.
and i know what's lost can never be returned.
and i'll never be the same in your eyes.

and i'm leaving for chinese new year.
and i don't know whether it's good or bad.
and i think i'll miss you guys :D

THIS VALENTINE'S :)

2007-02-13T21:40:00.000+08:00

THIS VALENTINE'S :)

Looks like my schedule is packed.
Today, I had an advanced date with Mrs Foong and the killer physics test paper.
I have a date with Miss Nawal and our 'easy'/'close both eyes' emath test tomorrow. (it's the best valentine's pressie yet!)
And amidst my hectic schedule, I still have another date with Mr Rambo and his beloved biology test. (which happens to be my favourite! :D)
Oh, I'm so popular! (on friday, we'll be paying them respects at the collumbrarium, haha.)

Anyway, school has be average... And St. Pat's been snatching our championships and teachers!!! Bleah :p

i'm fat, ugly, temperamental and i'm gonna spend valentine's alone! :(
it's so predictable, samantha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!!! LOVE YA LOADS!!! <3

RANDOMNESS AGAIN!

2007-02-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

RANDOMNESS AGAIN!

Attn: New Edition to the Periodic Table!

Womanium (WO)
Physical properties: Generally soft and round in form. Boils at nothing and may freeze any time. Very bitter if not used well.

Chemical properties: Very active and highly unstable. Possesses strong affinity with gold, silver, platinum, and precious stones. Violent when left alone. Turns slightly green when placed next to a better specimen.

Usage: An extremely good catalyst for dispersion of wealth.

Caution: Highly explosive in inexperienced hands!

Manium (XY)
Physical properties: Solid at room temperature but gets bent out of shape easily. Difficult to find a pure sample. Due to rust, aging samples are unable to conduct electricity as easily as young samples.

Chemical properties: Attempts to bond with WO any chance it can get. Also tends to form strong bonds with itself. Becomes explosive when mixed with Childrium for prolonged period of time.

Usage: Possibly good methane source.

Caution: In the absence of WO, this element rapidly decomposes and begins to smell.

Have a good laugh everyone! :D

FOR YOU.

2007-02-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

FOR YOU. <3

I'm the one who wants to be with you,
Deep inside I hope you feel it too.
Waiting on a line of greens and blues,
Just to be the next to be with you.

Why be alone,
When we can be together, baby.
You can make my life worthwhile,
I can make you start to smile.

I'm dateless for this valentine's :P
But I have 2 angels... and hopefully they won't let me down :D

FRIENDS. <3

2007-02-09T21:21:00.000+08:00

FRIENDS. <3

I was always here for you.
But were you there for me?

I rendered my help.
You fled when I needed you.

I asked for a simple favour.
Did you do it?
Could you even remember it?

It was my special day.
Did you remember?
Did you even say anything?

I did it for you.
Did you even realise that it was for you?

I tried my best.
Did you even put in any effort?

I was thankful for a friend like you.
Did you even remember that you had a friend like me?

I remembered all the joys and laughters that we shared.
Did you even remember how I sounded like?

I asked the Lord why he gave me a friend like you.
He replied: "So that you can learn from friendships like these and treasure others even more."

Then I realised that my best friend was always there for me. He was right in front of me.
Thank you Lord, for being there for me. Always.

LOVE.

2007-02-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

LOVE.

Everyone needs love.
Who doesn't?

At the cross I bow my knee,
Where your blood was shed for me.
There's no greater love than this.
You have overcomed the grave,
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now.

P.S I love you.

2007-02-03T15:09:00.000+08:00

P.S, I love you. <3

My darling Holly,
I don't know where yiou are or when exactly are you reading this. I just hope my letter has found you safe and healthy. You whisphered to me not long ago that you couldn't go on alone. You can, Holly.

You are strong and brave and you can get through this. We shared some beautiful times together and you made my life... you made my life. I have no regrets.

But I am just a chapter in your life - there will be many more. Remember our wonderful memories, but please don't be afraid to make some more.

Thank you for doing me the honor of being my wife. For everything, I am eternally grateful.

Whenever you need me, know that I am with you.
Love forever,
Your husband and best friend,
Gerry.

-adapted from the book 'P.S, I love you'.

TRAVEL :D

2007-01-24T20:27:00.000+08:00

TRAVEL :D

India - Taj Mahal
Gold Coast - Great Barrier Reef
China - Great Wall of China
Iceland - Hot springs
Canada - Nigara Falls [again!]
Paris - Eiffel Tower
Eygpt - Pyramids
Jordan - Dead Sea
Rome - The Roman Colosseum
Peru - Machu Picchu [lost and found Inca city]
Germany - Neuschwanstein Castle
Chile - Statues of Easter Island
Brazil - Christ Redeemer
Brazil - Angel Falls

Maybe it's just the beggining of the end.

JOURNEY. <3

2007-01-21T17:42:00.000+08:00

JOURNEY. <3

This is the last dedication for our final journey.

Why do birds suddenly appear

Everytime you are near?

Just like me, they long to be

Close to you...

Why do stars fall off from the sky

Everytime you walk by?

Just like me, they long to be,

Close to you...

On the day that you were born

The angels got together

They decided to create a dream come true

So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair

And put a starlight in your eyes so blue

That is why all the girls in town

Follow you, all around

Just like me, they long to be

Close to you...

Just like me, they long to be

Close to you....

Just like me, they long to be

Close to you....

And the road ends here.

Farewell, take care.

FOND MEMORIES.

2007-01-19T21:36:00.000+08:00

FOND MEMORIES. <3

changi airport.rainbow.rainy day.gate 17.perth international airport.degree celcius 12.star-lit sky.domino's.pepperoni pizza.hawaiian pizza.singleton.big w.target.myers.k-mart.donut king.riverton.applecross.willeton.inglis place.rostrata lane.10.playground.frisbee.tennis.tennis racket.slipper.dog beach.latent beach.latent beach shack.freemantle market.boomerang.hilaries.joondalup.shell.clams.subway.railway crossing.hot chocolate.van's shop.engagment ring.christmas.christmas presents.truffle.lemon meringue pie.blueberry pie.ally.dim sum.gelare.king's park.treetop walk.warehouse sale.best and less.carousel.beaumont.perth christian center.joyce meyer.foxtel.simpsons.cheetah girls.high school musical.woolworths.billabong.rusty.roxy.burswood.indoor stadium.poker club.banker.omafato.apple and guava juice.orange and mango juice.roast lamb.salad dressing.victoria station.the emporium.taurus.food court.singapore dreaming.chaos.tears.tension.bodyboarding.great white sharks.tears.pain.

I MISS YOU GUYS :'(
2006 <3

I FEEL...

2007-01-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

I FEEL...

hopeless - my A math is getting nowhere
lethargic - i simply have no adrenaline left
exhausted - mentally, physically and emotionally
grateful - for so many friends around me
happy - you guys are always there for me
pissed - there's a bunch of kids that keep talking to me through msn and i can't do A math
sad - i miss rooting for you
curious- i'm wondering who she is
pathetic - i took so long to write this simple post
lonely - are you here to save the day?

FUSION.

2007-01-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

FUSION. <3

FUSION was GREAT! I have never felt the holy spirit that close to me since a long, long time. That feeling was just awesome! It's a feeling that you know is even hard to come by when you're worshipping in church. Everyone was on their feet, just jumping along to the beat and all, if not most, were enjoying themselves. Last night, I promised myself that I would throw my worries behind and enjoy myself. However I was still worried about training and stuff, but as we sang the songs, the Lord's presence became more distinct and I really really surrendered all to Him. It was so marvellous. The freedom and the comfort of the Lord was just so prominent. I just loved the feeling, the feelign that is so rare to come by. Everything was awesome. Some said that Fusion 2006 was better, some said that Fusion 2007 was THE best, but to me it doesn't matter cause it's for the Lord and I enjoyed myself. We were like a can of shaken soda, (literally) filled with energy, waiting to burst out and worship him.

Thank you Lord. You are THE greatest! (:

HAPPINESS.

2007-01-11T21:49:00.000+08:00

HAPPINESS :D

Ten Rules for Happier Living:

1. Give something away.
2. Do a kindness.
3. Give thanks always.
4. Work with vim and vigor.
5. Visit the elderly and learn from their experience.
6. Look intently into the face of a baby and marvel.
7. Laugh often - it's life's lubricant.
8. Pray to know God's way.
9. Plan as though you will live forever - you will.
10. Live as though today is your last day on Earth.

Happiness is to know the Saviour,
Living a life within his favour,
Having a change in my behaviour,
Happiness is the Lord. - Stanphill

Please Lord, give me the strength to do it.
Amen.

AUSSIE.

2006-12-31T19:53:00.000+08:00

AUSSIE (:

Just returned from Perth 4 days ago, initially the arrangement was made for us to come back on the 25th. However, it was a standby ticket so could only come back on the 28th. Anyway, I enjoyed myself greatly!!! (: woohoo... it was so fun!

This trip has certainly taught me a few things which I would never forget. Thank you LORD!

[P.S I love you.]

ON A HOLIDAY!

2006-12-17T13:10:00.000+08:00

ON A HOLIDAY!
Do not disturb!
:D
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:D:D
Be back soon!

CAUSE I'M LEAVING.

2006-12-07T23:22:00.000+08:00

So kiss me and smile for me,

Tell me that you'll wait for me,

Hold me like you'll never let me go.

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane,

Don't know when I'll be back again,

Oh Babe, I hate to go.

WEDDING BELLS. :)

2006-12-06T11:58:00.000+08:00

WEDDING BELLS :D

2nd December was a very special day for a couple. It was their wedding day! Goodness, the wedding was so FABULOUS! I simply loved it. Met up with Adin, Joel and Wei Kwang before heading to the church. Tim couldn't make it because he was coming back from Thailand. Cheryl also couldn't make it because she had some family matters. Anyway, met them at the Mcdonalds in Tampines Mart and headed off to the church. I claimed I knew the way cause I passed by it the other day. But we actually went the wrong direction. HEHE, so so sorry guys. Anyways, Adin led the way and then we arrived at the church. It was so immaculately decorated. Her wedding photo was absolutely gorgeous! She looked ravishing! Anyways, the four of us arrived at 1.30 and was ushered to the front. So extra! Our other classmates arrived later and were seating behind. Even the teachers sat behind! So when the spokesperson [or whatever you call it] asked the students to stand up, we were very very extra. Hehe :) Then we shot class photos with the bride and bridegroom. So lovely. Hehe, the refreshments were great! Simply enjoyed myself. Oh and the bridal car was so cute. It was a beetle car [really old one] with a ribbon tied to the front and back. So cute! Here are the pictures :D

the bridesmaid was actually lao shi's sister!

lao shi and her daddy, escorting her to the front to meet her husband-to-be.

the flowers are so nice!